oops.... I did it again..

Ha ha... in the immortal words of one Britney Spears...I did it again...that is neglected to post anything on my blog since June....ouch...that is really neglectful...and for some reason I cannot thik why I failed to do so.... Think I will give my blog a facelift... and I really think I should e-my thoughts more often... well, whats happened since last I wrote...

1. New Job: yes can you believe it!!!! woo hoo!!! I am leaving the confines of my boring job as a lame ass runaround for other people to become a fully fledged study coordinator reporting to the director... working with her...which although it is striking the living-holy-crap-what am I doing fear bone in my body, I think it will be very good for me to have the change, and more responsibility within my career...I have to move forward and if this is going to help me realsie that goal, then I have to do it...hey? bring it on

2. Garden: ok... gardening is the first and foremost most pleasurable activity that I can ever do... It makes me extremely happy and when I am in the gsarden there is no other place on this earth I would rather be, that getting dirty, designing gardens and watching as they come to life before my eyes..it is spectacular... and awesome...to know you gave birth to that...and that it is thriving is awesome... I have sidetracked though...the lavender new garden has failed to materialise as of yet.... I have been sidetracked by two other burning projects that took my attention away from it....these are

• the rock garden: I redid a spot in the front garden: it was a weed patch with a statue in it... I moved the statue and transformed the space into a rock garden with some heat loving plants i.e. gazania, aloe, vygies... with a still water pond.. I recently got waterblommitjies (forgive spelling) and water poppies to out in the pond... indig and beautiful! loving the garden and loving ALOES!!!! they are the way to go...must post pics :)
• Now I am currently doing the garden that runs up the driveway... it about 25 metres long and a metre wide... I have cleared the area (it was hard... i have cuts, bruises, aching muscles and dirt ingrained into spots of my body that it is not polite to speak about...but it is done)..... planted two aloes in the patch, getting rock this weekend to do the hard landscaping and them...have to buy plants!!! (awesome ..cannot wait!)

...3. My sisters baby is arriving soon!!! yay! gonna be an uncle...looking forward to it a lot... cant wait to be uncle Hilton... going to spoil her rotten and then send her back to mom and dad.. love kids! and cannot wait to have my own oneday...being a dad must be the best.

anyways, promise to be more diligent in my ramblings..... keep cool people.

its been a while...

well, well you lot... it has been a while hasn't it... this is primarily because my little, incoherent creative brain has been other wise engaged.... leaving me at a complete blank with regards to what I should be writing on this blog.... I did have something I wanted to write, but got caught up doing some mindless work task that left me clutching for a knife so that I could hack my eyes out rather than bare another minute of stupid quality control.... grrrr.... needless to say, I forgot what I was going to write...

so, I have been really busy actually, with my garden that is, gardening rejuvinates my soul... it make me remember that life can be totally awesome, and that there are tasks out there that are so worth every minute you spend doing them... I had a major cleaning job to do, the aptly named ''lavender garden'' had become less lavender and more weed/conifer garden... it was a sad task whereby I had to rip out dead lavender plants, and hack back conifers ... leaving the garden a little sad to be honest... there were so many weeds that I did not even finish doing everything, and so the task will continue with zest this weekend ( Bring it on baby)...

I have also decided that the ''lavender garden'' will be needing a little remodelling ... gone are they days of my novice gardening plans, where the very fibre of my being was resolutely against the trimming of anything...under the guise of leaving things cottage style, I neglected to cut anything :) I loved it at that stage....I am now moving towards formal gardens, straight lines, clipped hedges, ponds, fountains.... that for me is now, the ways to go... I also like the idea of formal 'informal', where the the garden is kept "informal" in feel, but has elements of formality ... like clipped topairies, defined paths, general neatness.... This is what I am planning to explore with my lavender/formal/work in progress garden... so you'll have to wait a see what happens... I am really excitied. :)

other than that, life is pretty good, loving weekends....so I am ending this with a big smile :)

chat soon

the days of work

hey there everyone....

I really dont feel myself today....feeling very flat, unappreciated and depressed. ...this is primarily because of work... I mean, work is such an important part of one's life, we spend the majority of of waking hours slaving away for the man, all for the pleasure of completing a meaningful task and getting paid. I really thought that work would fufil me, I wanted to make a change...I wanted to be challenged everyday, and when I got home...to be tired, and perhaps complain about work, but still feel as if I was working towards a goal where I would get recognition, and I little importance...

This is not what has happended.....

my work is tedious, boring, I got giving the tasks of someone else because they left...and there was no one else to do them, I work my ass of doing the most boring data work... all with a title... but I get no recognition, and the woman who is my boss gets lauded for everything...including my work results....all under the guise that she is managing me... meanwhile I have worked here as long as she has, have the same qualifications, and have run the workplace without fault for months while she holidayed in mauritious for 2 months.... I feel like it is totally unfair.... to top it all, we are friends, and she moans constantly how she is unappreciated, and undervalued....

and when she gets 'iffy' she moans to the head of our workplace (who is always wanting to please her) and we all get shifted down in importance to satisfy her need to feel important....

I have not been idle about this either.... I have gone for interviews, and I am waiting to hear...I have even tried moving within the orgainisation.... but the block me from moving because apparently i am too "valuable"... I dont feel it.... and why should they block me, it should be my choice....

it is really frustrating me... plus, I pissed off someone last night by beng silly, and making statements that were harsh, and thoughtless....

dammit....

oh my f*&%@ing hell

ok, I am officially the most bored I have ever been....

I have tried to amuse myself it ten zillion ways, and still I am so bored.... to try and explain how I am feeling, I am feeling like my legs want tp get up and run away from my body...and I am getting tingles all over my body, that seem to be voting for me to get up from my desk, let out a gargantuous scream!!! (something like aahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!), jump up and run out the building, not looking back at all the people that will no doubt be wondering what the crazy white bloke is doing screaming and running in a mad cloud of legs, arms, uninterrupted screaming and general losing mindness.....

bloody hell....work today is impossible...in fact this whole week has been impossible, the work is either not there, or more of the same tedious, boring, insanely repetitive crap I do everyday.... i need:

a) a long holiday
b) a lot of alcohol
c) a comfortable couch and a TV

or, d) all of the above (hee hee)

I am really not a happy bunny.... what happened to the absolute bliss you used to get as a child from the most simple tasks.... the sand pit became the most amazing thing one could ever do... as we get older all that magic seems to disappear, and the monotony of work begins... how I wish my computer screen could give the the same magical bliss that that bloody sand pit used to give me.....

my personal lfe is good though ...no complaints there.... just that I wish I didn't have to work, and could instead become a garden designer, dig around in the dirt, plant gardens and be the happiest creature ever... in fact, I have decided that I should implement a 5 year plan... and that five year plan invloves me not working for the man anymore, and starting a garden service and potentially a nursery... I am adament I will achive this...

by the way my mom and sister resolved their issues...thankfully.... about 3 days after that last post..... I was ready to pound my head against any blunt object I could find...so kudo's to them for sorting that sh*t out :)

blah...back to the tedium........................ Zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz zzzzzzzzzzzzzzz zzzz

ramblings....

hello out there



I think I have writers block....ALREADY.... lol.... so funny... It is so hard to think of things to write about all the time...I seriously do not know how people become writers for a living... it is just too difficult...



work is the same old thing over and over again and I am beginning to curse karma for not making my parents super loaded, so that I could pursue mindless activities like watching TV, reading, and a range of other mindless yet exciting activities that would make me super happy every moment of my life... that said... I would probably be a useless, good-for-nothing if that happened so I am grateful for that... I am applying for a new job position... hoping I get it, would love to have a bit more responsibility in my postion at work, I like my job, but seriously, if its not a bit more brain exciting I think I will end up losing the remainder of the few marbles still rolling around in my head.

So, my life is a bit tiring at the moment....my mother is having the biggest fight with my dear ol'sister and her husband, and seeing that they live with us...it makes life a lot painful! I mean, in order to fully grasp they idea of this...let me introduce you to my clan....

My dad: the typical paternal figure...love cars, all manly activities and is very level-headed. He is normally calm, and collected but can be a serious pessimist at times.... which is so painful. We have little in commen when it comes to loving cars, motor bikes etc... but we both share a passion for history that connects us....

My Mom: A great woman. I love her dearly, but she can be overly-sensitive, and have the tendency to take any form of diagreement with her as a sign that we do not love her anymore... this is tiring. She is generous, and very loving.... but when angry becomes a screamer.... will shout you down, and refuse to listen...AWWW...can drive you mad...

My sister: can be the most humble, and compassionate person the one minute, and an evil, spoilt manipulative little gremlin the next. She is three years my senior, but sometimes I feel like I am the older one... she will tell the tallest tale and then act all innocent... my mother and her can RAGE at one another...

My brother-in-law: well, he is full of good iintention, but is quite possibly the one human being on this planet capable of annoying the living crap out of me....rage!!!! Grrrr!!!

so, now that you have been introduced:

My mom and sister are haing a huge fight at the moment...both think they are right, both have valid, good argument points, but both have gone completely overboard about the whole issue... they have been screaming at one another for 4 days now... and with neither willing to conceed a moral defeat.... it looks set to continue for at least another 3 days.... give me strength...for me the whole thing is ridiculous and fighting, and screaming because the one offended the other because she was cross that my brother-in-law disappeared for a whole day, leaving my mother to have to take my sister all over the place to complete tasks that he was supposed to complete with my sister.... is silly... shouldn't you be shouting at him, and loving each other??? or am I just not understanding this correctly... hmmmm.... confusion reigns.... seems to me, the person who started the crap is not getting any of the screaming at...

they (my sister and mother) need to sort it out...and get back to loving each other.... and considering me the deviant one...lol.....

Anyways, at least I have a special person that can keep me semi grounded when I want to throttle the life out of those silly ladies.... so thanks to that very special, and important person...

ok... time to get to work, and continue reading the flurry of emails that I get sent about why the one is wrong and the other is right and vice versa... :)

(insert witty title of your choice here)

hello there everyone....

had the most awesome chat last night with my longtime friend K.... I have forgotten how cool it is to have someone that you can just laugh with... she is one of the few people in this world who can laugh at strange, random things.... and by laugh i mean hysetrical, crowd-staring-at -the-weirdos laughing which I do way to little of... it was great. I dont think I laugh enough, not in the last year def, so having that chat reminded me of the type of person I actually am... I have got to laugh more.

I am planning to go visit K in September this year, so the Cape better watch out, I dont think it will ever, EVER be the same after us two crazy buggers have painted the town ever colour known to man, beast or insect... its going to be a legendary holiday...and I cannot wait....I am gonna come back with good memories, I know it....

It is funny how it is so easy to lose oneself in the chaos of life, I mean, I have really become aware of the fact that I have become a really grumpy person when I used to be much more lighthearted...I used to be the one always laughing... how I got to my current state of grumpiness...I am not sure...it just sort of happened... I think i really need to have a break from general life and just get back to how I used to be... A much less paranoid, much more smiley human being :)

So, I am resolute to make the change.... and I am excited about it...how well it goes...weeelllllll, thats another story all together... but time to get rid of the old and bring in the new (kicking and screaming)....

p.s. for k "coca cola"

its been a while...

well, after all the excitment of starting a blog, I got really busy, and I am afraid my blog suffered. Work is like that....times you are ready to end it all by throwing yourself off the nearest cliff and next thing youre so busy, you forget the cliff ever existed....weird...

well, updates... hmm.... well, had a really good weekend this past one... managed to redecorate my whole room...and even though it is still in the process of completion, the main bits are done... want to know what i did.... well, i am going to tell you even if you dont want to hear (hee hee....evilness of having a blog dedicated to the ramblings of oneself...lol). Ok, so I had a brainwave to paint stripes down my one wall, it looks awesome (very classy).. in a grey colour.. (according to the paint company the colour is castle stone)... the opposite wall was painted in solid grey, and I bought the MOST amazing light fixture ever known to man.... it was beautiful... I will add a pic...its really grainy though, it was taken with my cellphone, at 6 in the morning, when (now that it is winter) there is not enough sun to find your own bloody feet nevermind take pictures....

I still need to buy two bedside tables, and a big, ornate mirror for next to my bed and on the stripey wall respectively.... but these may take some time, I only want to buy exactly what I want.... gonna have to hit the antique shops cause there is nothing better than an antique... so lived in... love the history that they represent...

yay for having a cool room.... It makes you never want to leave it

Working on a saturday....

Hello out there!

Well, I am at work now (boo) while you guys are probably still tucked up in bed sleeping away dreaming of all the fun things you are going to do when you get up....youre so lucky. This said I am quite excited about this whole blog things and sharing my thoughts with the cyber universe, that I am actually....dare I say it.... happy about being at work....

Another reason for being happy I am at work is that I get a bit of time to be inside my own mind, often you just don't get the chance to be introspective, mind selfish, and have time to mill over things that are irritating you in the comfort of your own brain.... I am liking this today.

I am quite an intense person, I get angry quite quickly, although I take a long time to react, and I also get hurt so painfully easily that it is a detriment to my own psychological 'sanemindedness'. I hate that people can be nasty and it affects me so much... I wish I could be a little colder.

blah....

wow, aren't I being a sourpuss...two happy little blogs, and already I am getting all serious :) silly me.... I promise that I will embrace the weekend spirit and be a little happier... I mean there is always sat night, and sunday to ensure that I enjoy myself.... heres to the weekend getting better!

Day 2

Hello there world.... or the few aka no one reading my blog...lol
well, today is day 2 of my blogging experience, and I am still feeling pretty excited about it.

I must say that although it is Friday, I am not excited...I have to work tomorrow! totally sux... I mean a saturday is sacred and the claws of the great work monster should never intrude upon ones weekend time. It is not natural. My dad tells me that I should stop being a whinging little ninny because he works every saturday and that if anyone has the right to complain it is him... and although I will admit defeat insofar as his life sux more than mine... I still maintain that my situation is pretty grim.... :( Anyway, it does mean that I get to come in and surf the internet for endless hours, searching for novel and inventive ways to amuse myself while everyone else sleeps in, has a leisurly breakfast and watches the morning saturday lineup of repeated TV shows on DSTV....

I have a rather sad little titbit of info for everyone.... I have found myself entering the beginninings of a soapie addiction... and I am scared. I mean, soapies, are over dramatised sad attempts at recreating real-life that normally succeed in making it extremely obvious to the viewer that it resembles real-life as closely as a Paris H Reality series...and yet..it has the ability to make you want more, unable to remove your eyes from the TV for the half an hour that it is on, and then when it is finished you are left thinking "oh no, it can't be over, I have to know if Mr X will save his 99th one true love from the cluthches of the Scandinavian Trout farmers association who kidnapped her from her island summer house while she was mourning the loss of her father who turned out to be her uncles fathers 2nd cousin twice removed" and thats it...you are hooked, rushing home from work everyday to ensure you do not miss one second of the show.... However, this said, you can never admit to watching them (no one does) and when someone asks if you do, you have to reply "no man, I dont watch that sh*t... I get home and do 200 sit-ups and a cardio workout for an hour"... ja right... by the way, people who say that are addicts...

I personally was dragged into this soapie addiction by dear ol' mom... she has been a total addict for 30 years, and gets cranky if she misses even 3 minutes of 'her shows', in fact she will not even start cooking dinner until its over, or one of us has to prepare dinner. One day I sat down with her to watch the show, deciding that it was time for me to try spend 'quality time' with her... I first rolled my eyes at the prospect of being tortured for a hour of soapies, and could hear myself thinking ok... an hour of my life that i will never get back.... unfortunatly about 15 minutes in I started to become strangely intrigued and by the end on 30 minutes, I was convinced that my life would never be the same without my new fictional friends.... soapies are evil.

So for those you who have not succumbed to the perils of the plethora of soapies gracing our screens, I would remain that way if I was you.... however, for those of you under the spell of soapies.... I embrace you as by fellow brothers and sisters

and.... " I wonder if Mr X will save her....."

Let the fun begin....

well, hello there world....I have decided to join the world wide web and start a blog.... all my friends are doing it, so if theyre jumping in the fire...so am I.... I was considering trying to write something deeply profound for my beginning post... but bloody hell, profound at 13h00 on a week day is just s not easy.... way too many distractions including:

• lunch
• lunch, and
• lunch..........

not that my lunch is that exciting.....So, my blog is just going to be a cathartic release of pent up up, anger, silliness and randomness that will make my life more interesting...plus, I get to publish my thoughts to a world of faceless, computerised people that have no option but to listen :) lol... who needs a shrink....

Hello world